Oh wow, it seems as if
I’ve taken quite a large hiatus from updating this blog and I do greatly
apologize for that. However, I’ve been incredibly busy lately and this blog and
my writing have really taken a backseat to everything else going on right now.
For starters, I started college this
fall and my classes and school work for that obviously comes first for me. I
wouldn’t even say that the work load if currently worse that what I’ve had in
high school, but it’s just different and I’ve been adjusting to that. I’m only
in class for about eleven hours a week, compared to the thirty five I’m used to
in high school, but college does require a lot of work outside of class. I do
also work about 18 hours each week, which still doesn’t add up to the amount of
time I spent in school during high school, but it keeps me busy.
Being completely honest, I’ve
developed what I would call a new mindset now that I’ve hit college and writing
is becoming less and less important to me. I hate to admit it but it’s true.
For those people who don’t know I’m pursuing a degree in biochemistry and I’ve
now been spending more time thinking about what I’m going to do with my life.
I’ve had to think about what I am going to do doing once I’m done with my
degree and what things I need to start doing now in order to get to be
successful later. I’ve recently been offered a job as a lab assistant which I’m
hoping will help me obtain jobs in the future. I’ve had to think about what
kind of jobs I can get once I graduate and if it’s possible to also go into graduate
study while I have a job. I’ve also had to consider for the first time what I
would do it I would have to move out of state, something I’ve never even considered
before, since the best paying jobs in my field are all in different states. I’m
slowly trying to develop a plan for my future and I’m having a hard time trying
to fit writing into that plan.
Part of my lack of recent writing is
a lack of inspiration on my end. I want to get away from writing young adult
literature and try my hand at writing something that had meaning to it, but I’m
having a hard time trying to think of something I would enjoy writing. I’m also
having trouble writing the stories I’ve already started, in particular The
Unusual Isles sequel. Since there seems to be a lack of interest in the book
itself, even within my friends and family, I’m very, very, hesitant to continue
writing the sequel I have planned out. With the sequel to The Unusual Isles,
the book would be pointless without having read the first book, and if nobody
has read the first book, what’s the point of writing the sequel? I wanted to
put my concentration and focus into another novel or even short story that
could stand by itself, and would then have a chance at being successful and
interesting. The problem with those stories is that although I am in love with
the plot lines, I’m having a hard time putting the story down on paper through
characters that I’m having a hard time connecting with. I could easily write
the sequel to The Unusual Isles because I am already so invested into the story
and the characters, but if nobody else it, I don’t see the point in writing the
book, which I honestly find heart breaking.
I am very surprised with myself that
I’ve ended up reaching this point with my writing. In the summer I just came
from a huge personal victory in my writing after my experience in ANGA. My
writing had improved a ton and I thought that would give me the motivation to
write more. However, even since ANGA ended, my writing career and
self-motivation just ended up entering a downhill spiral.
As of right now, I don’t know what I’m
going to do any more. I don’t know if The Unusual Isles sequel will ever be
written, or any of the other novels I had planned. And I don’t know if I will
even end up finishing another novel again.
~K.M.D.
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